carl wishes to speak to you

i shall kill carl

alright guys i've still been talking to her and realizing that we are so much alike sad thing is the steel is broken and for the 1st time in so many years i am breaking into tears

there, there little boy, it's ok to cry.

not for me it has never been ever since 8th grade i promised myself i will NEVER let anything get to me that much and not attach myself to any1 or anything to the point i could break out in tears

well tbh that's pretty dumb. if you were absolutely heartless then i'd say you probably aren't even alive to begin with. that's an impossible feat.

not heartless but not get to the point to where i could be hurt so badly

Ok then may I tell u my love life?

It started in a rainy day, the sky was blue and the sun was shining brightly. I was a 10th grader, cycling home alone. Then I recognized Aogawa-san, a classmate of mine, also cycling home too. I talked to her a little bit, then I realized we were near my house. I then realized her house was very close (5 minutes by wak). I was surprised, but nothing much.

After that day I started to go home with her. Of course we used our own bikes. Gradually she became my best friend. I could talk to her hours without being bored. And that was when I realized I really love her. But then u know wat, I was a very shy boy that couldn't confess my feeling. So my feeling went on unnoticed (or at least that's wat I thought) for half a year.

The in the beginning of 11th grade, a best friend of mine, Yuuki-san, while swimming in the pool with me, admitted that he loved Aogawa-san and asked me to help him. And since I couldn't tell him that I loved her too. I agreed to spy her for information (fav. color, food, etc.). But I didn't give him anything true.

Then one day he confessed to her, she said she couldn't decide yet. So we decided to start as friends first. We went to cinema, shopping, eating together. It was fun.

Until there was another guy appeared. He also admited that he loved Aogawa too.

One day as I was hanging out with her and Yuuki-san, I slipped out that this was like the Three Kingdoms. Then when we were coming back from the cinema, Aogawa asked who is the third one, I couldn't say it so I ignored.

When I came home, of course, Yuuki also asked me and he got me. I must admit that to him. Next day, Yuuki informed me that he told her that I loved her too. I was angry but nothing I could do.

Days passed, and nothing happened. We were still like the same. Hanging out with each other. But a month later, she told me that she chose Yuuki.

I think you know wat I felt at that time.

But anyway, I can't let my eyes off her. It's an unrequitted love. I can't help but still hanging out with them. Do you know the feeling of seeing them holding hands walking together, sending txt msg and calling each other honey and the like? It's like crushing my last pieces of my heart.

After 3 months, they broke up. He made her cry enough to call me in the middle of the night for 3 whole hrs.

Next day I found myself get suspended.

I thought after that I could ask her out but no. Before I could gather my courage, she already had another boyfriend.

That was the time when I decided to quit. I change my route home, change my phone number and try to ignore her the best I can.

Mid 11th grade, when I thought I had forgotten her. She appeared again.

(To be continued if you want)

i dont think ill share my crap. it hurts too much to think about >_>

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