The Sun burns a bit darker now for me.
Words can't describe how privileged I feel to have been able to be with Adalene for the past 7 months. She was about as cheerful and caring as a person could be, while also being the finest archer I've ever seen. Ada always saw the best in people, constantly reminding me how she believed "no one was 100% a d*ck" (Romann Dey, Guardians of the Galaxy). Ada was so supportive about my passion to pursue the digital arts and animation. She always inspired me to create new pieces, whether she was trying to or not.
I also feel very fortunate for the community's acceptance of our relationship. We received nothing but support from the people around us, including Ada's family. I was both moved and heart-broken when we confessed our relationship to them. They were so kind and accepting to me (I think Ada's father was actually relieved), and it made me realize how other people with our circumstances don't get that kind of acceptance. And the fact that some couples have gotten disowned by their families or even beaten up because of their love tears me apart. Ada was also saddened by this fact, but she always managed to brighten both of our spirits.
And now that Ada is gone, everything has changed in my life. The world will never be the same for me again. My heart will never be as full again. And I'm beginning to accept that; I'm still just confronting all of my emotions rather than shying away from them.
I forgive the drunk driver (who's name I will not provide) for what has happened. He already feels terrible about what he did, and he needs to live on with that guilt for the rest of his life. I feel no need to enhance that guilt any further.
I do not blame him for deciding to drive while drunk.
I blame the people around him who didn't stop him from getting into the car. Whether it was his friends he was having a drink with, or the clerk who sold him the alcohol, I lose faith in them for not doing anything to prevent this incident.
I urge you not to make the same mistake.Adalene still inspires me to this day. I know that she wouldn't want me to stop pursuing my passion for art and animation, as well as my desire to better the SuperMechs community in Global Chat.
As I've emphasized many times before, I will return when the time is right.
Xzyckon wrote:
Just a week ago we had to put our dog down, he developed cancer and his quality of life wasn't very good. The house feels a bit empty now.
My deepest condolences, Xzyckon. I hope both of our companions are in a better place.
. This actually gave me tears
