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DOUBLE POST FTW!!!
Time to continue the saga, now I'm going fast fowarding the 2nd part
Ok in mid 11th grade, I met her again. Actually I met her lots of time since we were in the same school. But I ignored her all of the times. This time she approached and talked to me. So I can't ignored her.
She asked me to give her a ride home everyday. And to tell u the truth, that was the first time I give a girl a ride, not to mention she was the one I loved.
Well ok, I accepted it in the chaos of heartbeat. We went home like how we was before. Then I heard that she broke up with his boyfriend. And she looked very sad. I don't know why but at that time I tried to tell her to make up with him again. Maybe I saw that she was really in love with him.
His name is Migoto-san.
And 2 weeks later she told me I didn't need to give her a ride anymore. I understood immediately. She smiled at me, which made my heart frozen in 3 seconds. Then she walked off, at that times I felt very happy, but somehow I felt empty inside.
After that I stopped trying to ignore her, we didn't really talk much. She became the Student Council President and got herself pretty busy with the Council works (and her boyfriend). I myself found some toys too, a hot perverted 13-year-old girl who asked to do "that" to me everytime. When went as far as kissing, touching each other's directly but that was it. I didn't have time and mood to went farther.
That girl, from the beginning I'd guessed that she was cheating on me, I couldn't care less. Who would refuse? Then since I got bored with her, I broke up with her. And I began to watch anime, finding a girlfriend.
That was in the summer of 11th grade. In Sep, I became a 12th grade student, and found myself in a hell of study. My school was pretty famous for its 100% graduation and 50% university acceptance, which was a very high achievement for a private school AND a high school itself. And the reason? We were forced to study in school from 6:30 AM to 10 PM, then homework till 2~3 AM. And more of that but I'm not going to tell about my school life.
That was when my friendship with Aogawa-san increased. We rode home like before, I helped her with her study (since I was in the top class) and went to movies together, sometimes alone. But since she looked at me as a friend and I didn't want to lose that friendship again, we did nothing more than a friend would do.
My 12th grade passed peacefully and she's accepted to a Law Uni, I went to a Eco Uni. That was when I decided to go study abroad. She was sad but cheered on me. We were as close as a best friend now. Sometimes she cried on me and told me that she had an argment with Migoto. And I tried to bring them back.
But then in mid Dec of 2010, when we were together watching a film, she rested her head on my shoulder, which is an act of very closeness in my country. Heartbeat was racing with lightspeed but I managed to gather my courage and rest my head on her head too.
Then she fell ill and had to rest at home, since I lived nearby and I didn't have a life, I took care of her from morning till night, but her boyfriend didn't know and told her some rude things. As a result, she cried hard. And in the middle of the panic, I embraced her from behind, and after a while, she calmed down.
After that I started to be closer to her. I played with her hair and face while she was talking to me. After a week, her sickness was gone. And her first action was to find her boyfriend.
That night there was a call to my phone and I knew it was troubles, since she never called me, only texted me.
And as I feared, she argued with him again. And again, I tried to bring them back, but then she cried harder, telling me that she knew I still loved her but why I did that, why I didn't try to be more selfish. I then tell her that I loved her, but that was why I did this, I loved her but the most thing I wanted was her happiness. Shocked from my statement, she finally agreed to make up with him, but asked me to go with her.
Next day, she apologized to him and he apologized to her too. Everything was smooth until the evening, when we were playing the PUMP machine in the arcarde, he brought a girl there without saying anything.
As a result, she broke up with him.
Next day, as I was giving her a ride around the city to cheer her up, I gathered my courage and told her to be my girlfriend until she found another love. In other word, let me be her temporary boyfriend. And wat do you know, she agreed.
Then one day, when I was hugging her from behind (it was the farthest thing I had done till then) watching a romantic movie, my mind got lost in the fragrance of her hair and I kissed her, and to my surprise, she kissed back. Then my mind completely shut down.
I guessed u know wat would happened next. It was 21 Dec 2010.
After that we started to be alone more and more.
One day, in the middle of it, she admitted that she loved me, I was so happy that I cried and stopped doing. She wiped out my tears and kissed me, then we resumed.
It was 14 Jan 2011.
Two days later, she got a call from Migoto, he said that he wanted to make up with her. And as I feared, she still loved him. However, she refused.
After that she looked down. Let out a sigh, I told her to give him a chance. Yeah, I'm that stupid.
In 2 Feb, I went to Finland to study. We still kept in touch through Skype.
In 14 Feb, she broke up with me, saying with me being her boyfriend, she couldn't concentrate on choosing which one and that this might be temporary and I could be chosen again.
In 13 March, she annouced that she couldn't choose me anymore. The reason was the difference between families, I said it was ok with a laugh and a poker face. But I thought bs, I had the courage to stand up against my own family, but she couldn't. Hah, she didn't love me to begin with. Wat she really felt was a confusion with the feeling from a best best friend.
So now in 13 Oct, exactly 7 months from that day, I'm sitting here telling u guys story, with exact date and events (btw, the day when I first confessed to her is at 5:30 PM 19 Sep 2008). I could say I still love her. I've been in love with her, now I still and I will ever love her. I may find myself loving another girl, I may find myself forgeting her face, her voice. But I won't forget that I once loved a girl name Aogawa.
*The name was translated to Japanese, the girl's name means Blue River, and it's Aogawa in Japanese, nice name huh?*
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